Dear Mom-I miss you. Two weeks wasn't nearly long enough and when I dropped you off at the airport yesterday I knew it was going to be the hardest goodbye I've said to you. I had to avoid eye contact with the kids in the back seat because their tearful sobs weren't helping my own mental state. Days before I ever dropped you off I found myself tearing up knowing I only had a couple days left. Pathetic I know.
Four kids seemed manageable when you were here. But for some reason, Bennett's screams seemed louder today, Cannon went through countless diapers, Hallie was more emotional, and Hunter was just tired. I'm not going to say it's directly related to you leaving but it makes me wonder!! I think they miss you just as much as I do.
I can't thank you enough for giving of your time (and more importantly your energy) to help us out. It seems like with each child, my need/want to have you live closer grows stronger and stronger. I thought that the nearly perfect weather we had the last two weeks would be enough for you to pack up and move here - I'm still crossing my fingers.
Thank you for playing round after round of Go Fish with Hunter - for sitting at the piano with Hallie to help her out - for getting the kids out the door every morning so I could sleep - for calming a fussy baby - for distracting Bennett for the hundredth time to avoid his classic meltdowns - for reading stories to them every day - for taking care of the mending pile that had over 10 items of clothing that needed attention - for walking with me in the afternoons to get the kids out of the house - for talking and offering the emotional support I needed.
Thanks for being here, I never tire of your company. It doesn't matter how old I grow, I still need my mom.
I love you.
My mom lives out of state too and she also is an amazing support every time a new baby is born. Every time she gets ready to leave I have an emotional breakdown and really have no idea how I'm going to do it with out her. Once she does leave, there are reminders of her all over the house and it's so hard to put things away from her visit. Somehow, as days turn into weeks, I do survive and a new routine happens. You'll get through this time.. newborn time is so tough, plus you're balancing 3 other kids as well. You can do it.
ReplyDeleteIts so hard - yet now that I'm a few weeks out it's much better. Days have turned into weeks and we're managing. We've had some tough moments but luckily they're only moments and just that. I loved your kind and supporting words - it's the support system around us that keep us afloat!
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